Queens

Well I just came back from a weekend up in K-town w/ some church friends. It was very fun and it was really cool to see the Queens campus. Mannn...its such a beautiful university...w/ the same cobble stone/lime stone finish on all the buildings. Just walking around on the campus you can kinda sense the heritage and prestige...heh. Man Terry's res is like a hotel...dang man...its awesome...queen size bed...private washroom. AND then theres Goodes Hall. The business building......man...made me want to be a commie in Queens. I dunno...for me...the first things that goes through my head when I'm on a different campus is "How would I feel if I was here?" "What would be different?" I admit I really would of liked to go to Queens...but I'd also of liked to of gone to Laurier too :P . But you know what? "The grass is always greener on the other side". Where ever I go.....the other uni will always seem better. Such is life right? I gotta learn to enjoy my time in Guelph...its tough considering business is unknown here....and buildings are soo ugly and profs are so bad....but some how....gotta see the beauty.

It was Terry's b-day today...and man...is he one popular guy on campus. Everyone came up to him to wish him happy b-day. I dont think he's ever gone through life being kinda invisible or forgotten. Im happy for him though...seems to be really enjoying himself there and make a lot of connections. I guess a part of me wants that popularity...that love...that affection from others. I think everyone deep down inside craves and desires to be loved and considered significant. This is ironic cuz its during a time where I feel quite alone...quite lost...and I feel like no one cares about me. One thing I know though. Even hope in people dissapoint...not to put down good friends....but humans are human. Only God alone can satisfy. After hearing Ravi Zacahrais speak on the Guelph campus....it helped me refocus a bit. His topic was "What Gives Life Meaning". He pointed out 4 key elements: wonder, truth, love, security. Man that was a wake up call for me. I realized that my wonder for and of God had somewhat faded away. His truth in my life has been watered down and unrealized....leading to my lack of experiencing His love and security...