Man...i should be sleeping now....Im so pissed off at myself. I just cant back into the swing of things. Im disorganized...im behind....and im not fit >_<. ARGH not a good start to my semester...gotta keep that deans list goin! Gotta find myself right now...im still too consumed w/ my struggle w/ my emotions towards someone...man....im such a loser...she probably thinks im a loser too. *slap slap slap* "Get your act together!" BAHHH....need to motivate myself in devotion first...then the studying and work ethic will come...i know it. Mannnn....not too many jobs for coop....im starting to think I wont get a job for my term....oh well if that happens just gotta trust and have faith. God's in control of my life....in the end He's the one that writes my paycheck.
I guess I realized something. Shes probably already forgotten about me. Seriously...well I moop around...shes feeling good and having a good time. She talked to me on monday...first thing she said..."oh I have your router"...hi to you too..hehe. I guess that response shows her that its not even a grain of sand in her mind. I am such a retard. Well this is probably better for her. Now she wont have to deal w/ me...and in the back of her mind she's probably thinking....not missing anything...with that frienship gone.....no seriously. Shes got a real good frienship base already. I've seen her get real troubled over relational problems....not even that...just the fact that some ppl wont attend an event....that really shows she cares for them. I guess I have my answer.
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hang in there bro .
God uses even our "not so pleasant" experiences for his glory in the end.
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