summer

Im not gonna lie...not securing a job for co-op has me down in the dumps. I feel so unable. I dont care who you are but with 35 rejections (0 interview offers) somethings gotta give. My resume and cv's have been polished up quite a bit but still nothing. I try to stay confident but honestly I feel like im not good enough. So with that I gotta find something to do over the summer. Gotta just settle for a meaneal job that pays minimum. Go back to the hospital?....ughhh. I might just have to. I just cant stand working weekends. Everything I have to do centres around the weekend. Yes i know....beggars cant be choosers...i just gotta take my lumps and deal with it. *sigh* I do admit I've stopped praying about my employment situation. I dunno...kinda gave up on it...i think in this time God rather have me just spend time w/ Him rather than ramble on about my problems that He already knows about. I know He's in control, I just gotta get my heart aligned with His. Again, its about being the person God intended me to be. Character is more important than what im doing or where i am. so I guess i gotta just learn to be the right person in the wrong situation at the moment. As for summer...need to find something constructive to do. Cant waste away my days like this...mann...it sucks. Hopefully if God doesnt lead me to a job...I find something fruitful to engross myself into over these next 4 months.