This day started off kinda surreal for me. Man....my dad got baptized today...God is good i must say. I didnt show too much emotion throughout the service...i dunno...kinda in shock...kinda just silently enjoying the whole thing. 3-4 years ago i would've never even pictured my dad coming to church w/ us and now this? Like all of us he's got a long way to go...but everyone has their own learning curves i guess...hehe. After service we went to richlane and ate jap food while the rest of the fellwship went to another restuarant w/i the same plaza...haha.
Then there was 15th anniversary dinner for the church. It was good to be with church ppl again and stuff.....but as i type this i must say im a bit saddened after the evening. Things werent the same as before i guess. I realized how much we've all grown up and stuff and how time is flying by. Terry, bel, tiff, jason, brent and the bees werent there for starters...and i guess that just shows times have changed....different cities...different paths. *sigh* I guess i wished things went back to the way they were. I remember goin to this event 2 years ago and having a blast and after the dinner just hangin out and talk w/ a special someone...aiiii....memories.....none the less....must continue to live by phillipians 3:12-14....gotta just continue straining ahead...and looking forward to the next move God is gonna make in other ppls lives...thats something to take joy in and be excited about for sure.
Speaking of future....its never been so uncertain for me before. I dont know where i'll be in summer.....i dont even know where I'll be in september. Co-op search isnt goin too well but i'm keeping my head up and realizing that God has everything in control....gotta focus outside of myself. Scared? For sure...but i cant lean on my own understanding in this time. I think whats concering me more is whether I should transfer uni's or not. I got til may 1st to make that decision....and man I've been mulling it over for sooooooooo long. I've cut the pie every way you can cut it....pros cons and everything...and I'm stumped. I've looked at academics...ive looked past academics....and im like tearing my hair out!#!!@ A friend once told me that God gives us more freedom than we think when we make decision like these....that He's not gonna restricted us from a place or whatever....and I think thats very true. But I also like to believe that God does have a preference on where He wants me to be. I talked to kev about this and he told me there may come a time when i just need to make a decision...but you also gonna have faith that God can reveal to ppl "as clear as writing on the wall" on where to go. So right now lies my predicament. Should I wait for God to reveal sth or am I waiting in vain?...maybe God just wants me to make a decision and trust Him that where every I'll go...i'll still be in His hands. gahhhhhh. I watched an old 722 series and it was sooo cool...cause it was talking about decisions. Louie said that ppl are so concerned about being in the right place...in the right program...in the right college....while God is more focused on WHO you are rather than what you're doing or where you are. People are more concerned trying to find the right person rather than trying to be the person God intended you to be....people are more concerned with obtaining the right things rather than being a reflection of God. Man that hit me....it was true....i had that mentality but somewhere along the way I lost the way...
"He has shown you O man what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly, love mercy and walk humbly with your God." Micah 6:8
im steadly falling more and more in love w/ this passage. you wanna know "God's will for your life"??...well its right here. Louie said....where every you go...act justly...love mercy...walk humbly w/ the Lord...focus more on that then on being in the right place. "dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness" until it is your time to move on....WOW WOOW!!!!. soooo cool man. God is good. so yea....guleph or laurier....doesnt matter i guess....haha. I admit im leaning more towards laurier right now....and im just trying to be sure of myself...cause man...last month...my mindset changed like every day....i'd wake up one morhing and be like...man i wanna stay in guelph...the next day i'd wake up...man get me outta here.....haha...im so crazy. so yea right now im just trying to kinda let it all go and find peace w/ my decision. no longer gonna listen to ppl...cause everyone is saying something different....God is the only one that matters.
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hey bro =) Times really have gone by quickly ... I still remember when were were just "kids" like it was yesterday....
I miss everyone too ...but we are always connected wherever "life" takes us because our Lord Jesus Christ is the common ground =) You know ...when we're 50 ...I'll still be a kid don't worry.
I'm praying for ya brotha =P Even though the road ahead seems a bit shaky and uncertain.....have faith
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